my chi pet

i've killed my dashboard chi pet yet again.

it's this little sponge turtle that you have to water by clicking on a waterdrop right next to it so it's shell starts to grow a nice mossy covering.

blah.

i was never good with plants.

quote of the day

" So you want a heart? Be careful what you wish, for hearts will only be practical when they are made unbreakable."
-Wizard of Oz

hoping for a good weekend

tonsils out date is pegged at october 2.

i'm actually feeling a little sick today which is weird because i just finished a weeks worth of antibiotics. i've decided not to complain to anyone about it and just go on as if everything's normal. i won't let a pair of whacked out tonsils ruin my weekend.
i figured, it's coming out anyway. i can't do any more damage than what's already been done. hopefully they won't hurt enough to make me stay home for the weekend because that would totally suck.

on other news, my mom is driving me completely insane. it's impossible to go home and not have an argument of some sort. now, i'm resorting to just avoiding her all together since there's no reasoning with her. she'll always be right. i'll always be the antagonist daughter who brainwashes her sisters into disrespecting her and ultimately ganging up on her. sigh. i'll just have to wait until her brainwaves or hormones or whatever it is that's causing her "episodes" to return to normal.

this is exhausting.

life and life in general.

i recently dug up an old archive with my "life timeline" on it. it said that by now i should be engaged and by feb 07, i'd be married already.

er...

i don't think so.

my life does not even remotely resemble my "life timeline" plan. i think i'm going to have to go down the plan B route. but i was thinking of moving my march 2007 deadline to march 2008. by then my sister will have graduated college and we thought of moving to spain. i think i need that. although i would gladly give up that dream for the current significant other but if things don't move anywhere, i shouldn't waste my time wasting away on this island.

i think if by march 2007, there are no signs of anything remotely looking like settling down, i should make plans to make that dream happen. i've always wanted to have my own apartment and live in a big city. work at some cool job and save all my money just to splurge on fantastic clothes and shoes. meet dreamy spanish men with tousled brown hair and speckled green eyes. have wine in the middle of the day and eat nothing but tapas and paella. i think i'd want to take up masters in art or something in barcelona and paint on the weekends.

that sounds like something i'd like to look forward to instead of waiting for that damn rock on my finger.

good morning.

my moms opening line to me this morning: there are faster ways to kill yourself.

lovely.

a perfect way to ruin a wonderful saturday morning. i had planned to go to the beach inspite of my sore throat and colds. i've always believed that sea air is good for you and all i wanted was to hang out by the beach and relax instead of being stuck at home wallowing in misery.

aaarrgghhhh!!!! i feel like tearing my hair out!

the last of the expendable body parts

just came from the doctors office

diagnosis: tonsilitis for the enth time this year.

he recomended that i shoud have my tonsils taken out. it's a minor procedure according to him. 2 days in the hospital and about 5 days of bed rest. i've had an appendectomy and all my wisdom teeth taken out. this will be my 3rd time in the OR in 2 years.

shit.

this really sucks. and i have to schedule it when i'm in perfectly good health so avoid any more complications and infections. what a waste of 7 good days of health.

on the upside, i might be able to reach my goal of being 10 pounds lighter by my birthday because of this.