doesn't this remind you of stan?

hahaha!

My 8 things Meme

i've just read maya's blog and she tagged me to do the 8 Meme things.

1. i've been a naughty girl this weekend. stans parents were away for the weekend so i decided to sleep over at his house on the pretense that i'm elsewhere.

2. i'm obsessed with getting a copy of the latest Harry Potter book. i started reading the Harry Potter series since the book series came out. i'm hooked. stan keeps annoying me by looking at spoilers sites and teasing me about who dies. nevertheless, he said he'll get me the book to satiate my endless whining about getting the book.

3. i am soooo unprepared for tomorrow. monday is when i have non-stop back to back classes so i have absolutely no time to prepare during the day. i'm trying to train myself to get in earlier than i'm supposed to so i can have a few minutes to figure out what the hell i'm going to be doing with my classes. thank God i'm teaching art so i can semi-wing it.

4. i never leave for anywhere until the last absolute minute that i have to. i hate being the first one there and sitting around alone.

5. i get depressed on sunday evenings (like now). i love my job but there's always some sort of sadness that creeps in and makes me pouty when the weekend ebbs away.

6. i'm a super grumpy morning person. it might be genetic because hannah is the same way too.

7. i have about a week left to get stan a birthday gift and i have no idea what to get him. help!

8. i like watching those stupid reality shows like The Bachelor etc etc and makeover shows ala Ambush Makeover when i'm tired from work and i need to de-stress.

you get what you give.

after a day of moping around and sulking, i'm happy to report that we've patched things up. he did say he was sincerely sorry for blowing up and i guess it's just too emotionally taxing to hold a grudge. life's too short to let anger eat it up. hopefully my sunny take on life might infect my perpetually grumpy carebear who likes to stomp around and pout when things don't go his way.

since i can't possibly hope to lecture a 35 year old man who's seemingly set in his ways, i'll teach by example. that's my mission.

i've just been kicked where it hurts. slept in my makeup and woke up to an angrily stormy morning. so far, no tears. just a sad gnawing ache in my heart and it hurts to breathe.

maybe he'll call. maybe he won't. maybe he's fallen out of love.

my current favorite song.

Bottle it Up
by Sara Bareilles

There’ll be girls across the nation that will eat this up babe
I know that it’s your soul but could you bottle it up and
Get down to the heart of it, no it’s my heart you’re shit out of your luck
Don’t make me tell you again my love love love love.
Love love love love.

I am aiming to be somebody this somebody trusts with her delicate soul
I don’t claim to know much except soon as you start to make room for the parts
That aren’t you it gets harder to bloom in a garden of love love love love
Love Love love love

Only thing I ever could need , only one good thing worth trying to be and it’s

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

We can understand the sentiment you’re saying to us oh,
But sensible sells so could you kindly shut up and get started
At keeping your part of the bargain aw please little darlin’
You’re killing me sweetly with love, love love love
Love love love love

Only thing I ever could need only one good thing worth trying to be

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

Started as a flicker meant to be a flame
Skin has gotten thicker but it burns the same
Still a baby in a cradle got to take my first fall
Baby’s getting next to nowhere with a back against the wall.
You meant to make me happy make me sad.
Want to make it better better so bad.
But save your resolutions for your never new year
There is only one solution I can see here.

Love you’re all I ever could need only one good thing worth trying to be and it’s
Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for love, love, love, love
Oh, only gonna get get what you give away, so give love, love
Only gonna get get what you give away
Love

i work in a museum

too funny. haha.

after 6 loooooog weeks, i'm finally back to work. feels good.

happy iPhonniversary

so todays THE DAY. happy anniversary to stan and me! we've made it this far... i'm pretty sure we'll last forever. anyway, this is his way of greeting me and attempting to bridge the gap since we're not physically together for today.

i got this in the mail when i woke up.

Happy 4th of July!



no fancy shmancy message. just this. well, stan's always been a read between the lines guy and for someone quite straight forward he never says straight out what he means.

i just had to laugh. it's so him and i love him for it.

tick tock goes the clock

time moves so slowly when we're apart. from the hustle and bustle of keeping up with a "schedule", my day has come to a creeping halt. there's no one home to keep me company and the internet's whacked too. i didn't feel like painting today so i won't force it.

so to pass the time, i hung out at my grandparents house all afternoon. my nono looks well. he's eating and sitting and chatting. he hadn't been well in a long time so this was a vast improvement from the state he was in three weeks ago. we had a good time talking about how to cook risotto and my best childhood memories in their old house in manila. my nona came in and out of the room bringing treats for us. twix bars, cassava cake, fresh orange juice and we gamely snacked to our hearts content.

i love this house and all the good things it makes me feel when i'm sad. this morning, as i dropped stan off at the airport, i was teetering feeling bad about him missing our anniversary. but now i feel better.

better late than never

our third anniversary will be rolling around in a few days and he won't be here to celebrate it with me!! stan's being called off to manila for a couple of days for an Apple event that he must go to. after dreaming and scheming up this day, this is so not how i imagined it to be.

oh well.. i guess sometimes you just can't have it all. i suppose a "better late than never" attitude will have to come to play and maybe we can just celebrate it on the weekend instead. anyway, it's too much of a hassle to make a big deal out of him missing the actual day since he'll be back the day after. plus, we've been in a pretty happy mood lately and i don't wanna ruin it by throwing a tantrum.

anyway, i've been craving and craving for gyu don from nonki. any takers?

all good things must come to an end

classes start on monday so i'm pretty much on my last week of vacation. well, i had a pretty good 6 weeks of R&R and i can't complain because i know most people in the working world can't even get 3 weeks paid vacation.

i will miss waking up late and tagging along with stan to work. i hope he'll miss the company too since it can be pretty lonely at the top. aside from his meetings, business phone calls and dispatches to his office lackeys, he doesn't really talk to anyone else. and i guess it's been good for me seeing him work because i have an understanding of what goes on in his typical day and i won't be too much in a hissy fit next time i ask him out to lunch and he says that he can't.

i'll also miss having all day to paint and draw and dream up things to sketch. afternoon naps, spur of the moment coffee dates, and endless internet surfing will also be missed.

then again, i have been missing my kids the whole summer. i miss their hugs and kisses and our conversations about anything and nothing at all. i'm quite excited about teaching elem art. it won't be easy adjusting to every grade level but i guess i'll manage.

cheers to a new schoolyear!