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my friend: hey! i met a friend of yours the other day. he had alot of things to say about you.
me: really? like what?
my friend: he said that among your friends you're the smartest. but you can't really tell at first.

wonderful. so that's my first impression on some people.

anyway, i'm working my way to my canadian visa. might spend christmas in vegas!! that's not really sure yet but at least its something to look forward to.

at present i still have to get through prelims, thanksgiving fair, and an all out christmas program for the kids. my greatest challenge? choreographing a tambourine dance for 6 year olds. i can dance at a club but this sort of thing is way out of my league. i have 2 weeks to come up with something to oooh and ahhh the parents. and that's not even counting set and costume design that i have been assigned to sort out.

3 weeks and counting... can't wait!!

hopeful

okay.. maybe that last post was a bit premature. apparently, i'm going again. well, at least my chances of going have increased. now it's up to the embassy to give me a visa. here's hoping!!

no happy new year

i think it's final. all hope of spending christmas in canada has gone up in smoke and i'm sweeping the ashes. i got so depressed i skipped work this afternoon to sulk in my bed. another new year alone.. so what's new.. you know how in movies, couples kiss at new years? i never had that. i never got to kiss at new years. and this year will be the same old sad story. that old familiar tinge of heartache i get when the whole world seems to be in euphoria. i guess i'll get over it by the time christmas gets here and drown in it again when the day actually comes.

all good things must come to an end

and so endeth my long weekend. fun fun.. got to go to the beach, got a nice tan, spent lots of time with my nono, got a few nicks and scratches and jellyfish stings but i got to go diving, got lots of rest and relaxation.. pretty much what i wanted to do except the surfing. well, maybe another time. christmas perhaps... if don't end up freezing my ass off in canada. still haven't gotten the nerve to ask. still waiting for the perfect time to do it.

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my mom's car is busted. it won't reverse. i guess i will be carless for the whole week. again. at least stan offered to pick me up from school tomorrow. yey!

nightlight

school's going to start in two days. i'm kinda excited to see the kids again but kinda not looking forward to waking up early again. considering i've had trouble sleeping for the past few days, i think i'm really going to have to work on resetting my body clock. stan insists that i can't sleep because i keep the lights on. i can't sleep if they're off. to "solve" the problem, he bought me a nightlight. i thought it was a bit funny and a bit cute. well, he isn't really the most romantic person on earth but i think this one scored high.

my hair....

waaaaaaahhh!!! my hair!!!!!!! i've been growing my hair for the past year and i finally got it to long. i've never had it long before and i started getting compliments on my hair. but with all first time long haired people, i didn't take care of it too well and the ends started drying out. my mom suggested i get a trim. about an inch off.

now my hair is 5 inches shorter!!! apparently the moronic stylist felt it was better to chop off a chunk of my hair and totally ignored the "please don't make my hair short." instruction. i'm depressed.

at least stan was a darling in reassuring me that it still looked good. but still.... waaaaaaahhh!!! i miss my hair! the next time i'm going to have hair that long again will be when i'm 25.

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it's my birthday next friday. i'm still deciding what to do. i already have an outfit ready. but nowhere to go.

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my other dilemna - to go to canada with stan for christmas or not...