no happy new year

i think it's final. all hope of spending christmas in canada has gone up in smoke and i'm sweeping the ashes. i got so depressed i skipped work this afternoon to sulk in my bed. another new year alone.. so what's new.. you know how in movies, couples kiss at new years? i never had that. i never got to kiss at new years. and this year will be the same old sad story. that old familiar tinge of heartache i get when the whole world seems to be in euphoria. i guess i'll get over it by the time christmas gets here and drown in it again when the day actually comes.