finally!!! first sem is over and my saturdays will be free for about a month. and in about a month, i'll be turning 24. i don't know, i'm always excited about my birthday but i don't feel like i'm getting any older. i think i kinda got stuck at around 18 and every birthday after that is just that really cool day where everyone treats you really nice and gives you presents.
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In a conversation I had this week, a friend of mine asked me how my relationship was going. I said the usual… Fine. But lately I’ve been feeling kinda’ uneasy about it all. I think it’s just now that I’ve come to the point of no return. That time when you know that this is exactly what you want and know that it’s what you can’t live without. I know in my heart that this is what I’ll be comparing any other relationship that comes after this one to. I think I’ve found the love of my life. I think I’ve been holding back a little for the past year though things have been great between us. Suddenly, I just feel the whole safety net come lose and everything’s rushing in. However badly I fell apart when I lost the last one will be a smudge on a skyscraper compared to if I lose this one. It’s scary and exhilarating.
Funny how it took me a year for all these feelings to surface.
Stan’s asked me three times this week if I wanted to watch the Miss Earth SWIMSUIT competition today. Sweet of him to include me in his girl ogling. But no thanks really.. I just told him that it was up to him if he really wanted to go and I didn’t really have a preference. But I was kinda leaning towards the NO. I’d rather be doing something productive rather than sit there contemplating bulimia watching skinny girls in skinny bathing suits flaunt their wares.
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you should have gone! did you go? it would have been funny and it would be something to write about haha. i swear to you if we were a little (a lot) taller we'd be flaunting OUR wares.
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