i'm alive!

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interesting chat i had with a friend a while ago.

me: so, how've you been?
him: okay. jen and i. (yes, we're still kinda sorta together)
me: that's great. but what happened to your ultimatum plan?
him: i have a new outlook in life. care less, play more. (wink wink)i know you know what i mean.
me: hahahaha. wonderful.

for some reason, i've always had a soft spot for him. my bestfriend once told me that if he didn't live so far away, she could see us happily together. i think there's always been some unspoken attraction between us. we did go on a date once a long long long time ago but life was too complicated then for both of us so we left it at that. we never quite picked up where we left off and sometimes i just wonder...

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stan's birthday was last wednesday. buying him presents is one of the hardest things to do. i ended up buying him a bottle of DKNY perfume that i fell in love with and slaving away for a week hand-painting a story book for him. i think he liked them. he's not really the giddy type. well, he's 34 now. i wonder what i'd be like at 34...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

----> and this is what i've managed to accomplish all day. hurray for playing hooky!