had a little chat with my bestfriend today. of course, our little chats never stay little.. i only called to ask if we were going to a wedding of a friend of ours in highschool. but as with all conversations we start, it leads to something else and something else and before we knew it we were laughing through a life-decision making conversation of should i or shouldn’t i-s.
i was kinda rambling about the fact that next year will be stan and my third year together. i told myself a long time ago that i will never go through another super long term relationship and just wake up one day and realize that i’ve wasted a quarter of my life and have to start over with someone else. but something she said struck a cord.
“maybe you shouldn’t put a time limit on love. as long as you're happy then maybe it’s still worth it. maybe we should just be happy to have people who are there for us when we need them to be.”
true.
perhaps i’ve let all that “be practical” talk get to my head and let my ideals get the better of me. since i was a little girl, i’ve planned out my life to a tee. flashbacks of me writing “when i’m 16 i’ll be... and when i’m 20 i’ll do this...” still dance in my head ever so often and i lament the fact that most if not none of those things become exactly as i imagined it to be.
perhaps the greatest of loves are found in the thrill of the chase of each day and not in the security of having each other forever. perhaps the greatest testament of love is staying even if you are free to go and not in staying because you made a promise to. perhaps the greatest commitment to love is choosing the same person everyday when you can have any other person.
so maybe i’ll relax for a bit and enjoy the journey without a destination in mind just yet.
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