on the new year...

it's almost time to make new years resolutions again. i have a couple in mind already...

be more independent.
less clingy.
less worried that things won't go according to plan.
make more of my own plans.
speak my mind.
believe in myself.
live in the moment.

on other things, i had a conversation with my dad this morning about marriage. he asked me if stan and i were getting married. FYI. my cousin who is about my age just got engaged. i said i didn't know. he asked if we had any plans. in all honesty, i really don't know and i told him so. he then proceeded with some pearls of wisdom for me.

"if you love him and he takes care of you the way you want to be taken care of then you should get married. but if you have any doubt in your mind then don't. sometimes you just have doubts you can't explain and you should take it as a sign that you shouldn't. but you should also learn to distinguish between doubt and fear. marriage can sometimes be a scarey thing but if you work together then it'll turn out okay. don't be afraid of fighting or disagreeing. the important thing is that you are able to resolve it and resolve it well. forgiving is the easy part, it's the forgetting that's difficult."