countdown to 26

okay. now that the dust has settled and i've been able to put my thoughts in order, i've come up with another list of resolutions or things to do to improve my life. i'm getting excited about my birthday, nevermind the fact that i'm turning 26 and entering my LATE twenties. i'm feeling the pressure to make something of myself before 30. hopefully i'll be married with kids by then but that might take a while seeing how things are going so i might as well snap out of moping around and get excited about the other things i can do with the rest of my 20s.

#1 get a makeover. i think i've let my dressing style slip down a couple of notches over the years and it's easy to fall into complacency when you're busy and in some sort of a secure relationship. i'm not going to aim to be a size 2 or anything like that because i know it's never going to happen, but at least i should be healthy weight and dress well even if it means waking up 15 minutes earlier than i normally do. i'm also half contemplating cutting my hair short. what do you think?

#2 sleep more. i'm guilty of pushing the limit quite often and i really should get more sleep. besides, sleeping well at night gives your body time to regenerate hence less wrinkles and you eat less during the day because your body doesn't feel the need to compensate with food and thus accomplishing resolution #1.

#3 meditate. no matter how busy i am, i should be able to set some time for myself and center, perhaps even pray.

#4 be less clingy. yes. my perpetual goal but i'll still keep it as a goal until i'm finally rid of the need to totter after you-know-who and build my life around him. i'm doing everything in my power to make this relationship work and if he doesn't see the value in it and decide to make a commitment then maybe i should be strong and smart enough to know when to move on. in the meantime, it's back to painting all thoughts of the M word black to keep from moping around.

#5 spend less and save more. i should streamline my finances and start cutting out unnecessary expenses. my trips to the bank should be to deposit and not to withdraw.

#6 travel. well, i haven't yet figured out how to do this without breaking resolution #5. this might have to be a long term goal but i'll get there.

#7 go green. do my part in saving the planet from destruction. remembering to turn the lights off, recycle, reduce and reuse, get my students involved in some environment thingi project.

#8 finish christmas shopping early. preferably before december. i should start making my list and buying stuff so i have time to really think about it and not give hurried-thoughtless generic presents.

that's it for now. i decided on small and attainable goals as opposed to delusions of grandeur that might end up making me feel even more unaccomplished. in the meantime, i'm excited for our lunch date with maya to catch up on things and plan my birthday party.