pms

i had merienda with maya yesterday and we were both PMSing. we ended up ordering squid balls with spicy sauce, bibinka with tsokolate and kiwi lemonade at Kenya Cafe. the food was pretty good and the place was nicely decorated. over our neurotic merienda, we discussed substantial things like making worthwhile investments and somehow attaining financial stability. we're both nearing our 30s. she's unattached and i can't get my boyfriend to commit so we vowed to start taking care of ourselves and each other. we both resolved to make it a point to keep track of our financial progress (may, i think we should really support each other on this. i saw a show on oprah and how a group of girl friends were able to save a lot of money by following up on each other and setting goals).

i guess we never really thought up to this point in our lives that the possibility of not having someone to take care of us might actually BE a possibility. well, for me anyway... i think it'll be good to have a backup plan in case the picture perfect life i dreamed up might not come true. in the end, there's really no one else you can count on but yourself. i think i should stop pinning my dreams and my security on someone else like a husband. you just never know...